What to do, what to do.....

I love music as a way to express what I'm thinking and feeling. I often turn to song lyrics in order to say something more accurately. For example, the title of my blog is from a Billy Joel song called Summer, Highland Falls. The title of this post is from a song by The Drifters. I'm bursting with song lyrics from every genre, and soemtimes they infuse my speaking and writing without my even knowing it.

You can probably guess by the title of this post that I'm wondering what to do. I'm wondering where my life is going. I'm not quite sure which direction to turn in, even though some things are fairly well laid out for me.

School starts in just a few weeks. I'm really excited about this. I can't wait to start learning in a formal way again. Maybe that makes me a geek. I don't know.

The babe starts her new babysitter on the 23rd. I'm SUPER excited about this after all the nonsense and angst I've been through with my sister. I think it's going to be a much better situation for everyone. And maybe, just maybe, I won't have to kill my sister. I don't think that my mother would appreciate it.

My biggest dilema right now is what to do about the boyfriend. I love him. He's a wonderful man. I'm just not sure that we're right together. And frankly, if I'm not sure now, I don't know if spending years trying to figure it out is worth it in the long run. Here's the situation.

I know for a fact (don't ask how) that he's having an ongoing and inappropriate convo with someone through Facebook messages. It's sticking in my craw. And I've gotten to the point where I just think of us as roommates, because it makes me less likely to start breaking things in the kitchen. Essentially, if I was financially stable enough to call it quits, I would do it without even thinking. (God, that sounds terrible.) But, I have to think of the babe and make sure that I don't make any rash moves.

So, I'm left with the dilema of "what to do". Do I call him out? Do I keep simmering? Do I just disappear one day with no explanation? WHAT do I DO?

What would YOU do?