I don't know what is going on with me. I'm feeling so blah today. I don't know what I want or need to feel better. I guess I'm just in one of my moods.
This week has been a doozy. I've been sick all week, combined with the joys of my monthly visitor, and now there is something funky going on with my eye. It hurts and the lid is swollen. I look like Quasimodo.
When I get in these little funks, I feel like nothing in the world is going right. I feel like I'm not loved enough, like I'm not good enough, and my self-esteem hits rock bottom. It makes no sense. I sure as heck can't figure it out.
I sorta just want to go home and lay in bed. I think part of my problem is the anticipation of Kendal being with her "father" all weekend. Sure, there aren't overnights yet, but still, I miss her all day while she's gone. It's hard.
Maybe I'll see if my wonderfulamazinghandsomefunnysweet boyfriend wants to do something different this weekend. We don't have either of the kids. Maybe a long drive. Just go exploring. That could be fun. At least tomorrow the sun will be out. Beats this rainy, gloomy day.
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